Ok, first off, I just cleaned up this thread a bit. I don't think anyone needs to see the sheer insensitivity of what was written, and it certainly has no place on these forums.
Secondly, Andrew, I'm terribly, terribly sorry for your loss. The Internet is definitely the hardest medium to communicate effectively in, but I want you to know that the vast majority of us (i.e. all of us still here) care deeply about what happened. Some are, admittedly, a bit young to know how to express their feelings in a meaningful way, but this matters to us as a small community.
Again, since the Internet is a limited medium to communicate the gravity of what's happened, it's doubly important for everyone to just take a second, read over the news a couple times, and think about what's going on. This is a pretty serious matter. I don't know why anyone would, even for a second, consider taking this kind of thing lightly.
While we may not know the exact details, nor do we really have any right to know, I'd like to give you our collective sympathy. This is a hard time for you and your wife, and everyone must be able to respect that. It's the right thing to do.
Again, I'm terribly sorry for what has just occurred to your family, and I apologize for *Banned Member*'s ignorant, grossly disrespectful, and essentially inhumane behavior. This is a time of sadness, not stupidity, and I wish you and your wife the best in dealing with what happened. We ought to be extremely thankful for everything you've done for and given us.
But I also want to wish you good luck for the future.
For every end, there is a beginning. While it's true that what's done is done and that there's no way to change the past, it's also true that there's still what's to come. We can choose to either perceive the future as positive or negative, and I implore you to go on with a positive view. After all, what would be a Good Future without someone to make it?
Though we rarely ever have time for it, it always seems as though people find a way to question everything, especially at major turning points. I feel like this is one of those points, and I'd like to offer some guidance if it might help:
a) Don’t kill yourself. It’s never the solution. Never ever. Ever.
b) Too many people on the Internet are jerks; don’t listen to them (but, then, we all know that one )
c) Take what life gives you in strides. There are plenty of opportunities to stumble, but the wider your step the less a chance you have of falling over.
d) “Never give up, trust your instincts.” Yes, Peppy Hare said it in Starfox 64, but he has a good point.
e) Take a deep breath. You’ll be able to think clearer that way.
Lastly, I think it would be better if you took a break from the forums for a while. Use the time to figure things out with your wife and make sure everything important is under control before even thinking about lesser things.
On behalf of all of us here, thank you for everything that you have done for the Sonic community and for the amazing example that you have set for us, and I hope you and your wife manage ok during this time.
(Now, since it has been brought up in this thread, with regards to anything related to X-Treme, I would highly recommend you just don’t think about it for a while. No releasing files, no thinking about files, no thinking about anything until waaaay down the road when you feel significantly better about, well, life, the universe, and everything.)